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on the Guatemalan chicken bus
June 2007 
cafe Z
Posted on Jun 7th, 2007
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Mags
Mags
Café Z
Lima Peru
Car horns
Through the sea of exhaust
There is discomfort in discovery
I am naked by the virtue of the passport I carry
They see dollars signs in place of my blue eyes
I am a privileged figment of my own judgment
I am choking on my own judgment in the clouds of burning gasoline
Who the hell am I?
I am in that uncomfortable abyss that opens when you choose to see with other eyes.
There is so much to be learned in this space. It’s discovery. It’s what DiscoverHope is.
We can walk paths we’ve always known and walked many times— the foliage and the landscape are familiar. When you come to the end of that path, you confront the enormous cliff in front of you. It has an amazing vista. Your familiarity fades. You breathe in the incoming wind, it blows a thousand stories about people on their own treks. there is something genuinely incredible about every story being so different and so valuable in its own way. The vista below in this place is full of electric green—everything you see has experiences of its own.
You look back from this vista. You know the way back. There is an unspeakable melancholy and a wordless excitement. There is a death opportunity for part of you with a promise of a birth. But it goes against reason and comfort.
To discover is to be enthusiastic about the impending birth regardless of the courage it will take. “enthusiasm” has Greek roots meaning “a god within.” How awesome to consult that god within and to summon the courage to leap into that new abyss, trusting-knowing-living-awake. Sure, you may be scared, but fear can be replaced by the Light that comes with trusting that you want to live awake.
This is discovery—meeting yourself on a new path with no trail blazed, whatever that is. It may be the job you’ve always wanted, the art you want to create, the decision to be a parent, buying a new home, forgiving someone, creating a passion and enacting an intention.
In this new place you meet yourself again. You are different and changed. This ripple goes infinitely into the Universe. It changes who you once were, who you are, and who you will become in that decision. You begin with new opportunity. This is hope—a chance to create a new vision for yourself.
In all of this there may be discomfort. This wrung in my stomach. There is a brand new path. What is ahead is not seen. I know there is confidence in trusting, to walk with Light and accept the discovery. Here we see how standing for a vision, no matter how small or large it seems, can change the world in ways we may see or not see. Knowing is great enough.
Mzm 4-24-07 Miraflores Lima
Lima Peru
Car horns
Through the sea of exhaust
There is discomfort in discovery
I am naked by the virtue of the passport I carry
They see dollars signs in place of my blue eyes
I am a privileged figment of my own judgment
I am choking on my own judgment in the clouds of burning gasoline
Who the hell am I?
I am in that uncomfortable abyss that opens when you choose to see with other eyes.
There is so much to be learned in this space. It’s discovery. It’s what DiscoverHope is.
We can walk paths we’ve always known and walked many times— the foliage and the landscape are familiar. When you come to the end of that path, you confront the enormous cliff in front of you. It has an amazing vista. Your familiarity fades. You breathe in the incoming wind, it blows a thousand stories about people on their own treks. there is something genuinely incredible about every story being so different and so valuable in its own way. The vista below in this place is full of electric green—everything you see has experiences of its own.
You look back from this vista. You know the way back. There is an unspeakable melancholy and a wordless excitement. There is a death opportunity for part of you with a promise of a birth. But it goes against reason and comfort.
To discover is to be enthusiastic about the impending birth regardless of the courage it will take. “enthusiasm” has Greek roots meaning “a god within.” How awesome to consult that god within and to summon the courage to leap into that new abyss, trusting-knowing-living-awake. Sure, you may be scared, but fear can be replaced by the Light that comes with trusting that you want to live awake.
This is discovery—meeting yourself on a new path with no trail blazed, whatever that is. It may be the job you’ve always wanted, the art you want to create, the decision to be a parent, buying a new home, forgiving someone, creating a passion and enacting an intention.
In this new place you meet yourself again. You are different and changed. This ripple goes infinitely into the Universe. It changes who you once were, who you are, and who you will become in that decision. You begin with new opportunity. This is hope—a chance to create a new vision for yourself.
In all of this there may be discomfort. This wrung in my stomach. There is a brand new path. What is ahead is not seen. I know there is confidence in trusting, to walk with Light and accept the discovery. Here we see how standing for a vision, no matter how small or large it seems, can change the world in ways we may see or not see. Knowing is great enough.
Mzm 4-24-07 Miraflores Lima
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Another amazing, profound, courageous post. I felt a wrung in my stomach as I was reading your words. Thank you so much for sharing this.
I just read your profile again and found the link to: www.discoverhopefund.org. You are doing some amazing work, Magdalyn, and I admire and am humbled by your vision. Thank you.